Wednesday, August 8, 2012

First 24 Hours

 Chengdu has officially been home for more than one day!  30ish hours is more than a day, right?  Wow I must be tired to have to ask that.  Honestly I feel like I have been here for longer than that, with all of the things we have done packed in.  Let me summarize (and by summarize, I mean tell you in immense detail) the day for you.

Monday – 2:30ish p.m. - Our flight finally landed in Chengdu.  And then it began…the joys of bus rides from the plane to the terminal, immigration, and the ever enjoyable task of getting your luggage from the conveyer belt, onto the awkward carts, and out through customs to wherever you are going.  I made it that far and then the super fun task began: stepping foot into my new world.  It was really neat going through to the other side because there was a group of 20+ people from our school and community there to welcome us.  I felt like a superstar with the signs, cheers, hugs, and altogether merriment that resulted from our arrival.  (Maybe it was just because we were so delayed and they thought we'd never make it, but I prefer the superstar storyline!)  It was wonderful having so many helping hands after more than a day of traveling.  They whisked us onto the bus, back to the school, and to our apartments (which are lovely and I will describe later).  Phew.  Exhausting, but wonderful.

Dinnerish – We had a lovely meal with our hosts, Cindy and Jenn.  We went over to their apartment, both to see it and to get an idea of where things are in our area.  I also got to ride on the back of a scooter for the first time.  That was an experience…er…exciting.  It is definitely a different way of driving from the States…a bit like Ethiopia but entirely unique, really.  I immediately rethought my desire to get a scooter right away.  I will probably end up waiting for a few weeks at least, probably more like a month or two.  I want to have a good grasp of where I am and how things work before I brave that avenue of Chengdu life.  However, getting familiar with my part of town first would be good, so maybe I will get one sooner than I think. During dinner, there was a pretty intense bout of rain, which was preceded by a lovely rainbow.  The ladies said that it was the first they had ever seen in Chengdu. What a beautiful reminder of promises, old and new, it was for us.  I was definitely encouraged by it, although it didn't change the fact that I was exhausted and most things that I saw or did I will never be able to remember.

After dinner, I unpacked a bit and started getting an idea for what I will need to purchase and where my bits and pieces will best work to make this new place a home.


Tuesday - a.m. - I woke up at 3:15 for a few minutes, realized that I was hungry and couldn't eat, and then went back to bed.  Oh the joys of jet lag.  "Why couldn't I eat?" you might inquire.  Well, this morning we had a Chinese physical.  Yep, a physical on the first day.  Welcoming, eh?  Actually, it wasn't as bad as I envisioned.  The system is incredibly efficient, with different rooms that you visit for different facets of the exam.  The six of us moved through relatively quickly, causing a fair bit of entertainment for the nationals around us as we were given directions in Chinese, looked back at the doctors with questioning eyes, and then were talked at louder with gestures.  Oh the joys of this facet of transition.

Because of the blood draw that was done as a part of the physical, we weren't able to eat for 12 hours before it.  Yep, 12 hours of fasting after arriving in a new country and feeling like meals should be at completely different times than the norm…that was fun.  I haven't been that hungry in a long time, which actually served as a good reminder of how much I need to adjust in so many areas as a result of my current cultural confusion. Oh the joys of being me.

As a reward for surviving our physicals, we had Subway when we got back to our part of town.  Delicious.  The main difference that I noticed was types of bread that are available and that there was no ranch dressing.  The Tuesday special was tuna (just like back in the States), so I got that and savored every bite.

Lunch was followed by an hour off, so my roommate and I braved Walmart (VERY different than Walmart in the States, but still incredibly convenient for most everything), got some teaching supplies from our apartments, and headed back to school.  I opted to go to McDonald's (which is right next door to our school) on the way back for the afternoon to get a coffee.  Definitely a good decisions.  That makes two things that I don't do often in the States: Walmart and McDonald's.  Circumstances certainly do change things.

Tuesday afternoon, we learned more about the school, worked out some computer bits and pieces, and had a little bit of time to be in our classrooms.  My co-teacher is AMAZING and has many things set up already, so I just need to get into the bits and pieces mindset wise and we'll be ready to go.  Super exciting.

For dinner tonight, we ate with 6 other ladies that work at the school at a Korean restaurant.  So wonderful for many reasons, mainly that those ladies are fantastic and that the food was great.  I certainly won't be lonely or starve here.

Following dinner, we did a more intentional Walmart run and then had a little more unpacking time.  My room is starting to feel more like my own and life here, although far from normal at this point, is looking like something that will not only be comfortable, but home.  I am on my way to being at home in China.  Who would've thought :)

Location: Chengdu, China
Local Time (CST -- GMT+8): 10:25 p.m. (8/7/2012)
Auburn Time (PST -- GMT-7): 7:25 a.m. (8/7/2012)

Monday, August 6, 2012

Made it!

Just wanted to let you all know that I made it Chengdu.  I left Seattle around 9 p.m. Saturday night (noon Sunday Chengdu time) and then got to Chengdu around 2:30 Monday afternoon (so 11:30 p.m. Sunday night Seattle time).  How's that for confusing? :)  Love the apartment so far...and enjoying the new coworkers and surroundings.  Pictures to follow in the next week or so once I get another chance to breathe :)

Location: Chengdu, China
Local Time (CST -- GMT+8): 5:47 p.m. (8/6/2012)
Auburn Time (PST -- GMT-7): 2:47 a.m. (8/6/2012)

Saturday, August 4, 2012

And I'm off...


Room empty: Check.
Everything extra put in storage: Check.
Bags checked in: Check.
Boarding pass in hand: Check.

Phew!  It looks like I'm ready to fly out...at least with all the bits and pieces.  Emotionally, I don't know that I'm quite there yet.  It's so hard to leave.  I'm sure it will catch up with me later...like in a month when I have a chance to breathe again :)

I'm so sorry that I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to all of you personally.  Time flies when a departure is coming up fast, doesn't it?  Know that I'm thinking of you all and keeping you close to my heart.

Time for a nap...or yet another one last Starbucks in Seattle :)

But first...a few pictures from the last few weeks...
 On the water with my dad after a lovely Sunday Brunch.

 The Girrrrrs :)

A few of my wonderful Young Life ladies

Another one of my girrrs...who knew rubber bands could be so much fun :)



My papa and I at the airport before I headed off to China

Location: Seatac International Airport
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 7:35 p.m. (8/4/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 10:35 a.m. (8/5/2012)

Monday, July 30, 2012

Sorrow

There are many things I love about Google and the internet in general.  Today, I'm super thankful for the ability to search random quotes about what emotions I'm going through.  It has been a really hard week, and I have the sneaking suspicion that it is just going to get worse...much, much worse.  Goodbyes stink, no matter how many of them you have had to say in the past or how many are sure to come in the future.  So, without further pause, the quotes I have found and my thoughts...


“I guess by now I should know enough about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone-you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.”  Alyson Noel
So incredibly true.  Whether it's a permanent or a temporary goodbye, a good friend is not to be replaced or simply brushed past in your mind.  They have a permanent residence, in both mind and heart.


“Eventually, everything goes away.” ― Elizabeth Gilbert
So true.  Depressing, but true.


“It's so much darker when a light goes out than it would have been if it had never shone.” ― John Steinbeck
Darker, but somehow so much better.


"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes.  A farewell is necessary before you can meet again.  And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends."  - Richard Bach
That's much better.


Okay enough of all that.  It may be easier to have never had, and easier to think about the returns and eventual hellos, but it's still makes the loss, the goodbyes, the sorrow, very real.   Nothing can lessen or extinguish that.


Enough of my depressing thoughts...be well, friends, wherever you might be!

Location: Auburn, WA
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 3:27 p.m. (7/30/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 6:27 a.m. (7/31/2012)

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Pair-O-Ducks


As I was packing today, I ran across my Pair-O-Ducks…which will inevitably hold more meaning for me in about 2 weeks.  Confused?  Me too. Let me explain…

You are probably thinking of paradox right about now: 
1. a statement or proposition that seems self-contradictory or absurd but in reality expresses a possible truth.
2. a self-contradictory and false proposition.
3. any person, thing, or situation exhibiting an apparently contradictory nature.
4. an opinion or statement contrary to commonly accepted opinion.

And if you are thinking that, you are on the right lines, but these are my pair of ducks.

Meet Yay Duck and Yuck Duck.  I'll let you figure out which is which.



There are going to be many things that I come across in the next two years that are hard to handle/process/accept.  And there will be things that are super exciting.  It's going to be important for me to celebrate my yay duck days, but I have to accept the yuck ducks as they come, as well.  I won't want, but it's the balance that leads to a successful life overseas, and anywhere really.

I've been squeezing my yuck duck this afternoon as I've been packing. My yay duck will come out when I hang out with a few good friends later.  The yuck duck will return when I have to say farewell to them for two years.  Yay duck will follow when my head hits my pillow.

Oh the joys of life.


Location: Auburn, WA
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 5:01 p.m. (7/26/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 8:01 a.m. (7/27/2012)

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Oh the Joys of Learning Patience

Well it's here: my original departure day.  I can't believe that I was going to be ready to go by this point...all packed up and all of my goodbyes said.  I am far from that.  Packing is going well (3 bags down, room almost empty, and just a few bits and pieces left) but it's definitely not done.  I've seen a lot of friends, but putting off the goodbyes is far more enticing than actually saying them, so then I just fill up yet another week that I didn't think I'd have.  Oh the joys of being me!

It's been so good having my dad here for the last week.  He has been so helpful with packing and organizing stuff in storage...I'd be so overwhelmed without him.  On top of that, I've been able to see a lot of people that I don't usually get to while he's in town.  Always fun reconnecting!

I've got to run, but here are a few pictures from the last week or so.  Hope you are well, wherever in the world you might be.

Mount Rainier - Always a delight!

Sunset from Gasworks Park in Seattle

My dad and grandma at Trout Lodge for what would had been her 62nd Anniversary

So beautiful and green...love it!

My Aunt Mary and I

Me, Grandma, Aunt Mary, Uncle Nick, and Papa

My dad and I at Anthony's last Sunday



Location: Auburn, WA
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 6:50 a.m. (7/24/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 9:50 p.m. (7/24/2012)

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Another Overcast Day in Seattle? Quelle surprise!

It's been an overcast week here in Seattle, and while that would generally irritate me during my beloved summer break, at the moment I'm finding it quite comforting.  Instead of longing to be outside in the sunshine, I'm able to buckle down and get to work sorting through the last of my junk and starting to pack up what will head over the sea with me.  However, I still find ways to get distracted and do absolutely nothing of significance as far as packing goes...like browsing Facebook and blogging, for example :)

On an entirely unrelated note, my dad arrived yesterday and is spending the next few weeks with me here in the Northwest before I head out.  It is so good having him here.  Strange of course, since a majority of my life for the past 9 years has been spent living in a different country (and usually a different continent) than my parents, but still he will always be my daddy and I will always be his little girl.  He's here for a number of reasons, but it is so nice knowing that he was able to come around the world to send me off to another corner of the world.  Oh the joys of being a completely international family!

Okay, must get offline (er...out of my backyard where I can pick up my neighbor's internet) and get to packing.  Hope you are well, wherever you are!


Location: Auburn, WA
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 10:58 a.m. (7/18/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 1:58 a.m. (7/19/2012)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Precious Moments

There are a lot of little things that I will miss when I leave, but moments with people that I love are definitely on the top of that list.   I have so enjoyed the last few days at my cousin's house down in Oregon.  I got to spend so much time with her and her husband that was fantastic, and even more silly fantastic moments with her girls.  They are a HUGE part of my life.  I was there when they were born, spent last Christmas vacation with them, and countless other vacations and weekends.  They are the cutest girls in the whole wide world!  You won't be able to convince me otherwise!

I brought a stack of books down for them, some which are already favorites and some that are more meaningful for me to read than for them to hear :)  You win some you lose some!  One that I especially enjoy is Me with You by Kristy Demspey.  It's about a little bear cub and her grandpa, but so much of it is true for me and the girrs.  My favorite pages/lines are at the end of the book.  Let me share those with you.
On days when being me feels like
the sky was painted blank,
you and I together roll
along a brighter track.

And though I'll find new ways
of being me my whole life through,
my favorite me will always be...
when I am me with you.

 

And it's true: my favorite me is the me when I'm with them.  So many possibilities, so much love, and so many ridiculous giggles over nothing at all.  They are such a delight.  Leaving them is the hardest of goodbyes, not just because I love them so much, but because they don't quite grasp the concept yet. I live a few hours away now, so it won't be too different.  Until the holidays hit, that is.  Or the trips up to Washington to see other family when I magically show up.  *sigh*

This whole goodbye thing really does stink.


Soph and I on Day 1 :)


Liv and I are definitely smilers by nature :)



Location: Hillsboro, OR
Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 9:38 a.m. (7/12/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 12:18 a.m. (7/13/2012)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

On learning and life

I’m sitting on my last flight of the day, headed home to Auburn, attempting to sleep but awash with thoughts and emotions.  This is my last flight going in to SeaTac for a while, but not my last trip west.  Next time I fly, I’ll be headed so far west that they call it the Far East; so far west that I cross the International Date Line.  Next time I fly, I’ll be headed to yet another new home.

The last two weeks have been so much better than I could have hoped for.  Instead of being bored out of my mind learning things that I already knew, I was introduced to ideas that I may have been familiar with but that I could see in a new light.  I was given the opportunity to look back at who I am, a Third Culture Kid, with a set of skills and issues that is unlike any other labeled demographic.  I was also given the opportunity to consider how my role as an educator will affect the TCKs that I have an opportunity to work with in the next few years.   I was able to look back on the people that have impacted my life; to consider my mentors along the way and to derive from that an idea of who I’d like to be for my students.  Will I be the next Miss Lori and lead the students that I interact with to a deeper love for life and the unique journey that we’re all on?  Will I inspire like Bannister or Waggy-G?  I realize that these names and nicknames mean nothing to most of you, but for those that do recognize them, you know the big shoes that loom before me to fill.  And yet, I realize that the only shoes I need to fill are the ones set before me.  I don’t need to be anyone but me.  Simultaneously comforting and terrifying, isn’t it?

And now the tricky bit of the transition process: being thrilled for what’s coming but having to write the final pages of the chapter that I’ve been loving for the past few years.  As I start to say goodbye and mourn the loss of a home (that being more than just a place: instead it’s a community of friends, family, coworkers, acquaintances, and so much more), I can’t help but question why I’m going.  What would possess me to leave something so good behind?  Why would I give up a place that I love where I have been growing solid roots?  Why would I leave a group of friends that means the world to me?  Why would I ever want to say goodbye?  Good questions, and I doubt that I have an answer that would satisfy all of you, but I’m excited for this new adventure and know that it is where I am supposed to be.


Location: Somewhere between Chicago and Seattle
Local Time (GMT-5): 9:10 p.m. (7/6/2012)
Auburn Time (PST -- GMT-7): 7:10 p.m. (7/6/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 10:10 a.m. (7/7/2012)


Thursday, July 5, 2012

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