Saturday, May 26, 2012

Nature

I’m reminded now how much I love nature, and just how much I interact with it.  Every morning on my way to work in Auburn (as long as it’s not cloudy/rainy, that is), I see Mount Rainier.  There are always beautiful green trees somewhere close by.  Right now, I’m sitting with my aunt and uncle by a beautiful lake in Alberta, listening to the birds sing and the loons call out their claims to their territory.  Nature…everywhere.
Next year it will definitely be different.  Instead of mountains and evergreens, I’ll be in the largest city I’ve ever seen, surrounded by skyscrapers and millions of people.  It will be a different kind of nature…that which is the result of many people in a confined space.  There will be different sites that I marvel at.  Different mountains to adore, both figuratively and literally.
Different isn’t necessarily bad…just an adjustment.  Adjustments, here I come!

Location: Stony Plain, Alberta
Local Time (EST -- GMT-6): 7:29 p.m. (5/25/2012)
Auburn Time (PST -- GMT-7): 6:29 p.m. (5/25/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 9:29 a.m. (5/26/2012)

To Narnia and the North...er...just the North


After a momentary period of silence, I’m back.  And guess what?  I’m traveling.  I’m currently on board a flight from Seattle, WA, to Edmonton, Alberta.  It’s off to the Great White North for me for the long weekend to spend some time with my Canadian side of the family before I head off to the Far East.  I’m excited to see my wonderful grandmother, aunt and uncle, and a few friends from Ethiopia days.

Life is exhausting these and I’m having a hard time keeping my eyes open past 3 o’clock when school gets out.  I always seem to have just enough energy to do what I need to and then the inevitable crash of my systems follows.  I certainly hope this isn’t a long-term state of being that I will just have to get used to.  Perhaps I’ll finally have a chance to breathe once I make it to my new home in July.

Speaking of exhausting, I feel as though as I simplify my life in preparations for my journey, it just gets more complicated.  I am finishing up the school year here in Washington, attempting to stay sane and have memorable moments with my nineteen students that I truly adore.  Simultaneously though, I’m attempting to put all of the material possessions I’ve accumulated into boxes based on when/if I actually need them.  In my China trunk, it seems to be an abundance of cooking materials, clothes, and miscellaneous things that I may or may not have an inkling for at some point in the next two years.  At the same time, I’m trying to put all of my thoughts in order for the coming school year, planning lessons, writing units, and preparing for the different demographic of the school that I will be entering.  Oh, and I’m trying to get support taken care of and finish up all of the paperwork that I keep procrastinating on.  Who ever said moving was easy?

On a relational note, I find that I am doing well with making friends where I am going, communicating often with the teachers that I will be working with next year and getting to know what will inevitably be my group of friends.  They all seem wonderful and I’m excited to finally meet them in July or August.

But then there is life here: friends, family, work.  It truly is a beautiful life that has come together around me for the past three years, and the reality of leaving it in just two short months is heartbreaking.  To add to that impending misery is the reality that my friends who haven’t dealt with transitions like I have really don’t understand the leaving process.  Or maybe they do and I don’t.  Who knows.  They are shutting down and shutting me out, which makes total sense. But sense never relieves heartbreak, now does it?

Oh the joys of being a Third Culture Kid, torn between a wonderful international upbringing, a great American life, and the new adventure that is to come.  Welcome to my world.


Location: Somewhere between Seattle and Edmonton

Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 3:00 p.m. (5/24/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 6:00 a.m. (5/25/2012)

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Life - The Art of Getting Comfortable with being Uncomfortable

Things I've done in the last 48 hours that I'll miss:
 - Sat in the foyer of one of my favorite buildings watching the world go by.
 - Enjoyed the sunshine reading a book in a beautiful green Pacific Northwest backyard.
 - Had the barista at Starbucks know my name and my coffee order.
 - Walked around Warm Beach Camp and enjoyed the quiet stillness of Creation.
 - Two words: DQ Blizzard.
 - Young Life club at Olympic.  Those kids have my heart.

There are so many more that I can't possibly list them all.  But that's what life is all about, isn't it?  Being comfortable where we are, and then realizing that things will never be the same again.  And that's okay.  Life should change.  We should grow.  Places should come.  Time should keep moving.  Freezing it all would be perfect, but how on earth would we decide where it should be frozen?  There are dozens of moments that I wish could have lasted forever, but if they had, how many more would I have missed?

And so I've come to accept that I shall always be a bit uncomfortable, perhaps in a good way and perhaps in a not-so-pleasant way, but hey, I'm comfortable with that.
Location: Auburn, WA

Local Time (PST -- GMT-7): 8:57 a.m. (5/13/2012)
Chengdu Time (CST -- GMT+8): 11:57 p.m. (5/13/2012)